from reading your description, you're obviously pissed off at life. The only thing u can do is move on from project to project no matter how many years it may take. Plus you can't expect people to love what you made with the quality stuff that you're submitting now.
5 simple reasons y THIS video is failing in the eyes of the newgrounds community.
1) the quality is bad, story is kind of forgettable since literally EVERYONE goes through this phase
2) this game is in a form of a graphic novel. ( large amounts of ppl would've have automatically left)
3) you lied about this being 18+ AND have TAGS of porn, and yet not have any porn ( you shot yourself in the foot right there. PLUS, depression is not 18+ only)
4) just because you're trying to portray it as poetry or art doesn't make it so.
5) Most importantly... your hostile attitude towards the community viewing your content.
You can have your reasons to defend yourself and elaborating your excuses, but the simple fact that everyone see ( no matter what the subject is) is the bitter execution that you have now displayed.
For Instance:
When this reached front page, your ego shoots to narcissistic levels and basically calls out that everyone is blind and should have adored your content since the dawn of time. I might be exaggerating right there, but that's what coming to my head when reading YOUR description. Plus, we live in times where people don't care about what programs were used in the process, Only the end result matters. blood and tears doesn't mean shit to anyone (again, no matter what the subject is) and the quicker that is realized, the easier/smoother the rough edges of life can be.